Hello Ween

Also, I started taking piano lessons. I think it's going to help me in a lot of ways.

October 24th, 2007

Today, while riding the bus, I slipped backward and fell onto a step.

It was very dramatic--people tried to grab me.

I wasn't injured.

My ego broke the fall.

No Time

Now that I'm working full-time, I don't have a lot of time to do my own projects. I'm not really upset about it, but I do miss it. The good part about being so busy is that it makes me more urgent when I know I have a good idea. The idea has to compete to survive. It causes sacrifices of things like sleep, showering, brushing teeth, etc. It's easier to focus, because there is no time.

I think it's true that life is preparing the camera, instead of snapping the photo. Try to snap the photo preparation.

Today I:

1. Received a ping pong trophy.
2. Witnessed bicycle polo.
3. Witnessed a large game of adults playing dodgeball.
4. Took pictures with John and his 9 month beard.

Oh, and I'm 23 now.

Meow

I learned a lot of great things when I went to college. I also met my wife and made some great friends.

I also got kind of stiff. Maybe it's because I was surrounded by lots of people who were similar, when I had been used to growing up the "weird one." This attitude was not imposed on me--I think it's just competitive nature to want to seem cool and mysterious.

I've found that living that way has slowly dimmed my soul.

I'd now like to make a fool of myself. Well, no--there is a balance--but I just don't want to care about how I'm perceived, or how what I'm creating at any given moment fits into a package that I can sell to someone I don't even know.

I forgot what a funny picture was.

tom thinks change

It's time for a change. I'm not sure what it is yet, but I need to start being more honest with my work. I've reached a point where I think that only super refined work can be added to my site, as if I need to impress someone, but the original excitement I had about having a website was the ability to share what I was working on at any given moment. I'd like to return to that frame of mind and start putting up more drawings and dumb animation. I've been taking myself way too seriously.

Now Games Then Games

Sometimes I forget that people actually do read this. Not necessarily a lot of people, but there only needs to be at least one person to matter. I've been writing a lot, but not on here. I've been writing to people that I know. The words come easier, because you know who is going to read it.

When I sit down and write in this blog, I feel uncertain. I wonder why I am doing this.

Once in a while, I stumble upon the writings of friends, or even strangers, that I connect with in some way. It feels good to connect. That's why I do this.

On The Edge

I live in Seattle again. School is over. I'm glad to be here, but it's hard too. Even though I am in my home-city, my life is a different life now that I've been gone so long, and I'm married, and I'm working full-time. It's all good though. These are all things that I am pleased about. Sometimes newness is overwhelming.

Something new and fantastic happened last week. Jessica and I were walking home from a restaurant, and it started to rain. About five minutes passed and the rain wasn't on us anymore, but we could see the edge of the rainfall twenty feet ahead of us. The rain cloud was moving in the same direction, so we could literally run back into the rain and out again. I was so excited that I told people who weren't noticing it.

I would love to experience that again, but I'm fine if I don't.

In other news... sometimes I forget that challenge is good.